Category Archives: reflections

what i dreamt it to be, what it has been, what it is, and what it can become…reflections of love’s past, present, and future…love revolutions.

boys at play

never go away

never go away
I can leave
If ya want me to
That’s the last thing I want
You know it too
Yea, I’m still here
I wanna stay
But I won’t
Until you say
I want you
Only you
Never go away

Now I have
wished upon a star
I’ve crossed my heart
Heard the lines
Been torn apart
Still I’m here
Waiting and praying
That you will want to start
On a journey with me
Down the aisle
Hand out, shaking
Wanting to see me smile

Been a long time
Since I drifted off
Got lost in thought
Lost in you
Catch myself daydreaming
Caught up in you
Yea lately I’ve been
Wondering
Wondering off
Off road
Off track
Off the path
Wondering about you
Do you feel it too?

All the years
I’ve been waiting
All the time
You’ve been hesitating
All the tears
From my eyes
Knowing
You’ve never cried
Never even tried

I can leave
If ya want me to
That’s the last thing I want
You know it too
Yea, I’m still here
I wanna stay
But I won’t
Until you say
I want you
Only you
Never go away

on hold

loveonholdEver since I met you
I’ve been
Holding my breath
Hoping
That maybe
Someday
You would
Hold my hand
Until then
You’ve got
A strong
Hold on my heart
I feel it breaking
Each time
I see you
Holding her
So close
So tight
Breathing in
And out
As I fight
The tears inside
Holding on
Try to be strong
Hold it
Won’t show it
To love and to hold
Sometimes means
Letting go
Hold my head up high
As I wave good bye
No more
Love on hold

be her man

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she will never change
you tell yourself everything
trying to make it, make sense
hoping that you can save
all that you thought you ever had
the family, the wife, the life
you wanted
the one that haunted
all those lonely nights
when you promised yourself
if you had just one chance again
you would take her hand
again and again
no matter what the cost
you would be her man

now here you are
laying beside her
wondering why you’re not touching
why her back is to you and its like you’re nothing
and then you remember that feeling
the one you had before
remember why you walked out the door
hoping for something more
then your heart sinks
when you start to think
of who i could be touching
who is getting my loving

remember what you told me
you wanted that falling feeling
wanted the touching, loving, squeezing
missing my kissing
couldn’t wait to be with me
holding me tight
then she called
you went running back
now you can’t sleep
without dreaming of me

well you can keep
laying beside her
wondering why you’re not touching
why her back is to you and its like you’re nothing
and then you remember that feeling
the one you had before
remember why you walked out the door
hoping for something more
then your heart sinks
when you start to think
of who i could be touching
who is getting my loving

be her man
be the best you can
stop dreaming of me
you can rest assured
you were mistaken
when you thought i was waiting
baby i’m already taken

love sparkles

love sparkles

it starts with a look
then a spark
bringing out the love
lighting up the dark

love seeing reflections
love to listen to the crackle
soon to be lovers
chasing that connection
love sparkles

searchin for
one soul
one song
someone
believing in once upon
dreams and wishes
love and laughter
hugs and kisses
happy ever after

sometimes we remember
more than we need to
when we forget
what we ought to recall

love remembering when
love listening to the songs
remembering the dance
feeling the melody
love lifelong

searchin for
one soul
one song
someone
believing in once upon
dreams and wishes
love and laughter
hugs and kisses
happy ever after

love seeing reflections
love to listen to the crackle
soon to be lovers
chasing that connection
love sparkles

yes, you

yes-you

Is that you
Knocking at my door
Will I let you in
Like I did before

Do you
Still love me
Question in your eyes
The tears you see

Go away
You’re not welcome
Here no more
Go find someone
Who will believe
All the lies you’ve told before

Can you
Just listen
It’s not what I think
You persisted
Saying “I want to be honest
Tell you everything
I promise”

Go away
(I want to stay)
You’re not welcome
(It’s you I wanna come home to)
Here no more
(Everyday)
Go find someone who will … believe
(I know it’s hard to … believe)
All the lies you’ve told before
(I wanna be yours)

Flashes of uncertainty
Moments of doubt
Sometimes happens
Only with you
Yes, you

Can’t help but wonder
Biting my lip
Pinching myself
Falling through
I can’t find a way
To forget about you
Yes, you

Go away
(I want to stay)
You’re not welcome
(It’s you I wanna come home to)
Here no more
(Everyday)
Go find someone who will … believe
(I know it’s hard to … believe)
All the lies you’ve told before
(I wanna be yours)

Is that you
Knocking at my door
Dreaming of
Yes, you
Love

addicted

Picture 1

addiction
wanting something thats not good for me
addiction
been through the steps
know where they lead
addiction
still i look
wanting to see
addiction
wanting you to want me

addicted is how i wanna be
drowning in love
dreaming of you and me
addicted to thoughts of
winning, constantly winning
addicted, so addicted
i admit it

addiction
can’t stop when I know I should go
addiction
knowing it will only
end up hurting me
addiction
such strong cravings
addiction
stronger than me

addicted is how i wanna be
drowning in love
dreaming of you and me
addicted to thoughts of
winning, constantly winning
addicted, so addicted
i admit it

addiction
trying to make wrong right
addiction
a well traveled path
another lonely night
addiction
you got the power
but still dont see the light
addiction
giving up the fight

got to
have to
turn around
walk away
i conquered
my addiction
today

it was me

flowers

it doesnt make sense
this life of curves
everyday playing pretend
trying to move on
hide hurt you have learned

then the day comes
the day where the its clear
the moment you see
the moment you feared
the day you realize
im the one
it was me

you just can’t believe
always right there
to make you complete
all you ever did
was leave

then the day comes
the day where the its clear
the moment you see
the moment you feared
the day you realize
im the one
it was me

running
not away
running
not afraid
running
got to find
running
make up
for lost time

then the day comes
the day where the its clear
the moment you see
the moment you feared
the day you realize
your dream

looking for us

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i know you think you got it all
but i know there is
something you wish you had more of

yea you
got a life some would call
a life blessed
but you’re still looking for love

few and far between
are the doors
that have closed
those hearts so easy to open
not forced, no rush
not seeing where you’re going
excited by the never knowing
your heart shut out
wondering and wanting
yea i know you’re
still looking
still wanting
us

at my door your kneelin
talking about now
just give me one chance

i was a fool back then
didn’t know what what i had
we were meant to dance

few and far between
are the doors
that have closed
those hearts so easy to open
not forced, no rush
not seeing where i was going
excited by the never knowing
my heart shut out
wondering and wanting
yea i know now
i was still looking
i was still wanting
us

what happened then
can always happen again
i am so scared to let you in
ive gotton used to the hurtin

ive been thinking i finally had it
had it all
but i know there is
something i wish i had more of

yea ive got a life some would call
a life blessed
but im still looking for love

in the picture

i want to be beside you
the one making you laugh
make an album of memories
an album of us
letting life’s moments occur
i want to be in the picture

lets capture the moments
the here and the now
tomorrows sun rises
all of life’s surprises
hand in hand
frame by frame
and not wonder
what we could have became

i reflect on my life, the shots up till now
i feel happy and proud
as i turn the pages of the present
living the pictures that develop
i know the shot i want to see
a picture of you and me

lets capture the moments
the here and the now
tomorrows sun rises
all of life’s surprises
hand in hand
frame by frame
and not wonder
what we could have became

as you look back upon your life
the defeats, the glories, the fight
childhood, teenager, husband and wife
each memory like a picture
in your album of life
i want to be there
be the one beside you
moments as we were

tears and laughter
happy ever after
our memories
our life
in pictures