Category Archives: re:love

“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is.”
~ St. Augustine (from the movie Captain Corelli’s Mandolin)

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if only

whisper

here i sit lonely
thinking of her
oh if only
only she could see
what she does to me

if only she knew
my mind races with thoughts
how my heart stops
if only she knew
what her eyes do

yea if only
if only
she knew
then i might not be so
so lonely
oh, if only

tick tock thoughts
another day gone
wake to tomorrow’s dawn
oh if only
hoping not to be alone
my love unknown
if only
only he could see
what he does to me

yea if only
if only
he knew
then i might not be so
so lonely
if only

if only things could have been different
no telling where we might have went
if only you could of seen
the lines in between
oh if only
here i sit lonely
thinking of you
and if only…

 

kissless

kissless

i would rather go kissless
than to be with just any one
would rather go kissless
than it just be for fun

no, my kisses are priceless
not just anyone can receive
the kisses im sending
because i do believe

that he is out there
the one my kisses belong to
he is breathing the same air
i know one day out of the blue
that god will answer my prayer
i just got to stay true
save my kisses for when i care

i would rather go kissless
cuz i know what he’s worth
would rather go kissless
than to kiss just anyone on this earth

i know what im missing
one day thats what ill be kissing
until then ill be kissless
waiting for the day im blessed

keeping faith
that he is out there
the one my kisses belong to
he is breathing the same air
i know one day out of the blue
that god will answer my prayer
i just got to stay true
save my kisses for when i care

jason

jason

The first one was in marine biology
You would of thought he knew exactly how to get me
Young girl looking for a boys affection
All he had to do was give me a lil attention

Yea Jason was so smooth
Had me swayin to his lines
Too good to be the truth
I thought I learned my lesson
Until I met Jason #2

He had those puppy dog eyes
Had me looking at his profile
Next day I see he left a message for me
We had a date to meet by the end of the week
Yea Jason #2
So cute

He twirled me on the dance floor
Held me tight, had my heart racing
Gave me a feeling I couldn’t ignore
Until I found out about another girl he was chasin…
Then I met another Jason

Third time I thought was a charm
Yea he had me thinking I was the only girl on his arm
Telling me I was different
Wanting to see me

You know they say shame on you once, shame on me twice…
Yea he had me thinking I was wrong before
And now I am paying the price
Lesson number 3
Learned and burned
No more Jason’s and me

new music

love_song_by_neska92

yea its time to get me some new music
got a habit that I’ve been working to kick
keep hitting forward on my player
and it keeps playing all the songs
that make me think of you
back when you made me weak
when our love was strong

yea got to get me some new music
can’t keep playing all my old tunes
just make me think of you
of us
and that’s too dangerous
cuz then I get a lil taste
and all it does
is make my heart ache

got to hear some new lyrics
pick my heart up and away
get me through today
without you
gotta play something new
i cant hear the old songs
the same
without you

yea got to get me some new music
can’t keep playing all my old tunes
that just make me think of you
of us
and that’s too dangerous
cuz then I get a lil taste
and all it does
is make my heart ache

baby you had me all excited
felt like a queen for a day
and then all of sudden you decided
that you had to runaway
as bad as i want to hide it
baby you still find me
lyrics talk
i try so hard to fight it
melodies whisper
yea its time to get me some
some new music
got a habit
I’ve been fighting to kick
you music

you. don’t. know.

tou dont know

Funny how you think you know me
With just some texts and pics
You know all about my personality
My laugh, my cry,
My faith, my trust,
My smell, and that look in my eyes
You haven’t been there for
My high fives, my down lows
You. Don’t. Know.

You don’t know how I thought of you
So many times, the stars times two
Wanted to believe, wanted to trust you
Haunted by the feelings
Remembering the words you said
Couldn’t believe what I was hearing

I know I said a lot, TMI like no other
But then that’s my brave heart wanting to fly
Always hoping of finding more than a lover
Still can’t believe I fell for your lies, line after line

You don’t know how I thought of you
So many times, the stars times two
Wanted to believe, wanted to trust you
Haunted by the feelings
Remembering the words you said
Couldn’t believe what I was hearing

Yea I don’t know you
We haven’t spent time together
Your absence is loud
The distance speaks volumes
You don’t have to turn it up
I’m not callin

we could have

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trying to forget
what ive always known
wonder why we met
when im still alone

stupid me for thinking you might of
changed your ways
stupid me for feeling like you could of
grown up – no longer afraid
stupid me for letting down my guard
had to tell you, couldn’t wait
didn’t think i would end up this sad
stupid me for thinking
of what we could have

you say you just flow
try to avoid any friction
but i think you just go
dont want any commitment

i can admit it
i jumped
couldn’t wait for the fall
i jumped in
not thinking
i wanted it all

stupid me for thinking you might of
changed your ways
stupid me for feeling like you could of
grown up – no longer afraid
stupid me for letting down my guard
had to tell you, couldn’t wait
didn’t think i would end up this sad
stupid me for thinking
of what we could have

i thought maybe someday
you would walk through my door
i would be the one you would call home
i would be the one you couldn’t let go

tick tock love

love_lost_by_genevi143

trying to get you to open up
trying to get me to shut down
trying to make you not run
trying to make me walk
oh the back and forth
tick tock, game I play
each day, we are apart
each beat, of my heart
stop

crying as i write
crying out to you
crying to fight
crying to get you to talk
oh the back and forth
tick tock, game I play
each day, we are apart
each beat, of my heart
stop

the hardest part
is never knowing
where you are at
where you are going
if you ever think of me
if you ever find yourself
wondering

lying in the dark
lieing to yourself
lying cold and alone
lieing “to be on top”
oh the back and forth
tick tock, game you play
each day, we are apart
each beat, of your heart
stop
it doesn’t have to be
this way

starting gate

yanno they say,
certain amount of looking back is healthy
and Lord knows, I’m guilty

been there in the back for a long time
just thoughts running through my mind
dreams I wanna chase
maybe win a race….or two
trying to learn from the past
cause i remember it
and then i remember you

now I’m long gone
over you
now I just find you in the songs
there’s plenty to remind me
of where I’ve been
my mind spinning
yea you know how
to still get to me
you’re still winning

gotta remember that’s not where I’m goin
got the Lord showin
me where he wants me to be
shining a light where I’m goin
knowing that you
wont follow me

now I’m long gone
over you
now I just find you in the songs
there’s plenty to remind me
of where I’ve been
my soul spinning
yea you know how
to still get to me
even though we’ve ended

gotta cross my heart
whenever you cross my mind
follow the path
the shot in the dark
God lighting the way
not going to be where I’ve
already been
no, not going to stay
not afraid
make a new way

now I’m long gone
over you
now i change the song
been there in the back for a long time
just thoughts running through my mind
dreams I wanna chase
cant win if i dont race
ive got a standing start
jumping out the gate

songs of you

maybe i’ve been a fool
holding on all this time
always waiting for a move
dreaming what we could of been
looking for some way to prove
that we are better than just friends

and i know if i let you back in
it’s the same damn thing all over again
still i hear you in my thoughts
dream of moments that never occurred
wondering why i fought
for those words i never heard

when did you stop loving me?
how long have i been a memory?
wondering if i was ever there?
in your thoughts, in your heart?
why did i get scared?
how come i fell apart?

another long summer’s come and gone
i don’t know why it always ends this way
cloudy days, lonely nights
the cold, the wind, the chills
still fighing the fight
memories to broken heartsville

i don’t wanna hurt nobody
don’t wanna make nobody cry
hate myself for making it last
this constant spell im under
cant change the past
just left to wonder

dancin’ in the dark
middle of the night
thats what we could of been
brave hearts, skipping together
more than just friends
souls dancing forever

lost and scared


hello
its you again
lost and scared
suspicious
looking over your shoulder
every day repetitious
wondering when it will be over
wondering if it could get
any colder

your world
a blur
lost and scared
when is the last time
you actually cared

same day
as every year before
lost and scared
all running together
different places
got the act down
looking for your heart holder
wearing all the right faces
just a year older

your world
a blur
lost and scared
when is the last time
you really cared

lost and scared
so scared
to show that you
might really care
you’re scared you will be
lost and scared
without me